My Life- it's as fun as puttin' lipstick on a squirrel

OK folks, it has been a while since I last Blogged. Nearly a month. So welcome, Happy New Year and I pray that you all had a great Christmas and were blessed in many ways. Many of you know we are smack dab in the middle of an adoption. We have a 12 year old young lady from VA Foster Care placed in our home and we will adopt her in March 2013. She has waited over 7 years for a forever home. This placement has been awesome, scary, nuts, ridiculous, tiring and super all at once. When accepting a child into your home that comes from a "hard Place" you ask for nothing. You LOWER the Bar- this is the favorite thing I hear at my therapy sessions with a great man who specializes in attachment therapy. What is attachment therapy? well I am so glad you ask.... you see...there is this koala ....just kidding. here is the lowdown: http://attachmenttherapy.com/ad.htm  read that! :) Our dear daughter to be suffered from RAD- which is this: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/reactive...

Meditation for the Day Thinking about God in love and worship drives away evil. It is the thought before that the hosts of evil flee. The thought of a Power greater than yourself is the call for a life-line to rescue you from temptation. The thought of God banishes loneliness and dispels gloom. it summons help to conquer your faults. Think of God as often as possible. Use the thought prayerfully and purposefully. It will carry your thoughts away from material things and toward the spiritual things that make life worthwhile. The above meditation hit home for me  on June 17, 2011. And yet when I dust it off today it really feels relevant. With this Christmas fast approaching we all feel the pressures. Whether they be to decorate, bake 1,000 cookies, get the "right" holiday picture, or buy too many presents. What I want to feel this season is LOVE, JOY, PEACE and HOPE. So all of the above will be set aside so I can worship and praise God for giving his SON to...

  So. I am co-leading a recovery group and guess what step is next. Step 4. Each time I study a step I think to myself. Man...this one is a doozy...but the next one is as well! :) Love walking through the steps with a new set of eyes! here is what A.A. says about 4th steppin' it: "But in A.A. we slowly learned that something had to be done about our vengeful resentments, self-pity, and unwarranted pride. We had to see that every time we played the big shot, we turned people against us. We had to see that when we harbored grudges and planned revenge for such defeats, we were really beating ourselves with the club of anger we had intended to use on others. We learned that if we were seriously disturbed, our first need was to quiet that disturbance, regardless of who or what we thought caused it." God Bless ya'll, Tracy

ahhhh. being a victim. dusted this off from June 2011 This was  a meditation for the day back in June 2011. words of wisdom for anyone "breathing today" I am not a victim of others, but rather a victim of my expectations, choices and dishonesty. When I expect others to be what I want them to be and not who they are, when they fail to meet my expectations, I am hurt. When my choices are based on self-centeredness, I find I am lonely and distrustful. I gain confidence in myself, however, when I practice honesty in all my affairs. When I search my motives and am honest and trusting, I am aware of the capacity for harm in situations and can avoid those that are harmful. perhaps I do need a meeting.... Here and today in 2012 I choose to walk in Faith with my Savior Jesus Christ. Good or Bad he gets me through. I hope you can walk with the Lord. And if you do God Bless you.

So many people have asked us how is the adoption going? I think it's going fantastic. Now if you asked the tween we are adopting she would tell you otherwise! A year ago today we were going to " adoption classes" . Today we are 30 days into 180 days of adoption. The trial period if you will. But as soon as the paint was dry on the hot pink walls and the last tote of miscellaneous have nots was moved in it was done. I don't need papers to say I am a Mom. My heart breaks for a child who has been disappointed over and over and over again for 12 years. The abuse/neglect did not end when she was taken from her birth parents, not the first time, nor the second. The hurts continued. In the form of many placements, residential centers, disrupted adoptions because people could not put up with what she put out. Failure after failure after failure. Ball dropped...too many times to count. So here we sit with a grenade. A fine product of the foster care system. Full of anger,...

Dusting this meditation off from July 10, 2011 ·   Meditation for the Day Expect miracles of change in people's lives. Do not be held back by unbelief. People can be changed and they are often ready and waiting to be changed. Never believe that human nature cannot be changed. We see changed people everyday. Do you have the faith to make those changes possible? Modern miracles happen every day in the lives of people. All miracles are in the realm of personalities. Human nature can be changed and is always being changed. But we must have enough faith so that we can be channels for God's strength into the lives of others.

Contempt of the Proud Dusting this one off from  July 18, 2011 I am proud to say that the person I was dealing with now does not anger me ...with a few healthy boundaries and some good old prayer...times are much better! :) Below is a blog I receive from a ministry. I am currently dealing with a Proud person. This individual is materialistic -peppers me with "money" questions all the time. This person is the complete polar opposite of me. This person actually brings anger to me daily. I know things about this person that would bring their life as they know if to an end if I simply open my mouth. I don't wish to share those secrets with others as it would hurt their mate. I need prayers to indeed not Mock the Mocker. I need prayer to NOT stoop to the level of battle that I endure daily by simply interacting with this individual. Please pray that my tongue not be my weapon of choice. Pray for peace and understanding and pray that I can continue to pray blessi...